4 Days without the Bupe (Suboxone)
Life has sure been challenging over the past few days… I’ve been keeping myself so busy that I really haven’t made as many posts as I would have liked to on here. For the most part, I feel really great, well… really great for being addicted to something for 2 years and just jumping off the wagon.
The first two nights and mornings were the worst part. I’ve been keeping it mostly herbal, using Kava Kava and a blend of chinese herbs called Seven Flowers to help get me to sleep. The problem is that I can’t stay asleep for long at all, I do more tossing and turning than anything, which really sucks because it’s hard to get yourself up and moving in the morning when you’ve just laid there for most of the night.
Throughout the first two days, I ingested about 6 grams of 10x Kratom extract, it didn’t help as much as I thought it would, but it was sure as hell better than nothing. On day 3, I tried upping the dose of Kratom to about 6 grams which produced some nice, relaxing effects and most of all, some relief.
As I’m writing this, completely sober for 4 days now, I feel pretty good. I have this uncomfortable feeling inside me, which almost feels like high blood pressure.
Besides Kratom, optimism, kava or anything else, I think that music has helped me through this the most. Well, and the fact that I cannot be sick, stay in bed or be lazy at all.
Throughout the past few days, the one thing that I have noticed is that I did not tell myself that I need that stupid fucking orange, fruity pill. Instead, I have been telling myself that I want to be in control of my life.
This is a good example of how your mind can overpower anything. If you want something bad enough, you can have it. If you have faith in yourself, you can make it happen.
Don’t browse the forums if you’re looking to quit, that will only intimidate you. Feel free to post comments on any of these posts, or go to the contact page and ask me for some advice, I will happily help you out.
Here are my suggestions for those of you looking to drop the bupe.
- Stand tall. Be strong, keep your head up.
- Get some sedatives for sleeping, you don’t need diazepam, alprazolam or anything like that… Kava works the best, along with valerian, hops, skullcap, catnip, 5-HTP.
- If you can’t sleep, don’t keep trying for more than an hour or so. Get a shower, try again.
- If you still can’t sleep after showers and sedatives, get busy. Clean, go jogging do anything that involves you being active. Your body freaks because it doesn’t have what it’s used to, don’t let it bind up on you. Exercise.
- Don’t browse the web for help, it’s not going to help, it’s going to scare you. The weak-minded have covered the internet with bullshit. Which is why I have posted this, and which is why it out-ranks all the other topics of it’s kind.
- DO NOT call your doctor or look for a fix. Stay strong, it gets a little better.
- Talk to me about what to do. I’m no expert, but I have learned a lot from attempting this several times. Use the comments at the bottom of the page (our discussion will be public) or go to the contact page to speak privately.
